Posthumous Release

by Coma Cinema

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recorded in los angeles, california
dedicated to lee pennington

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released 11 June 2013
produced and engineered by jason and brad from tv girl
mastered by warren hildebrand
"Posthumous Release" adapted from "hmm...I Was Born" written by justin blackburn and noel thrasher
everything else written by mathew lee cothran



cover photo by diana kingsbury

thanks to all those who kept me alive and going these past miserable little years.

and the biggest thanks of all goes to rachel levy, my sister and best friend

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Track Name: White Trash VHS
laughin' broken glass
talkin' til my head hurts
vhs white trash
smiling see you later

crashing through the void
remembering my family
apologies unfold
into flowers of humanity

closer than before
on the edge of being
the same fuck up as before
dying in a secret

sick refusing sleep
childhood hides in dreams
somewhere out of reach
safe from all bad feelings

come downs wearin' out
all that blood and guts
your guilt is gonna put you down
while you're begging for forgiveness

mercy kill the past
descending from heaven
vhs white trash
demonic possessions

in her dying words
as her tape is rotting
vhs white trash
gives you one more problem

a poison afterlife
but that's her trip not mine
forgive me when i die
bury me inside your life

my little
white trash vhs
Track Name: She Keeps it Alive
judgement see me dead
speak her name so softly in my head
her weariness is mine
she keeps it alive

the curse that summoned me
is coughing up dull praises for her grief
i gaze into her eyes
she keeps it alive

blacked out drawing blood
bad intentions tearing out my guts
pointless sacrifice
she keeps it alive

cut myself at work
walked outside forgot about the world
weakness rot me wild
she keeps it alive
Track Name: Bailey Jay
bailey jay
promises made
to bring me down
to what i am now
vicious dreams
carve out your name
endlessly in touch
with one another's pain

we don't know how to love
we don't know how

bailey jay
dead ambitions
bear the weight
of everything you've ever done
use my needs
turn to desire
honestly bleeds and blurs
between us all the time

we don't know how to love
we don't know how
Track Name: Lee (Columbine High Harmony)
our ugly symmetry
meant everything to me
but after all this time
it's come to mean nothing

and my wrists somehow forgot
that quiet parking lot
or one year later
on your roof top
Track Name: Satan Made a Mansion
caving to a feeling
cave in to my mind
satan made a mansion
for our love to live when it dies

confess me to a graveyard
quit fucking with my mind
hold me for forever
eyes prettier than suicide

caving to a feeling
cave in to my mind
satan made a mansion
for our love to live when it dies

fuck me in the graveyard
confessions always in my mind
keep them for forever
eyes prettier than suicide
Track Name: Partners in Crime
innocent, her tiny wrists
are tying down an endlessness
lingering in an abyss
a broken heart cannot resist

a buried past is flowering
around the church of suffering
don't let it in

lost within our hotel room
i kiss your neck and leave a bruise
time drags me away from you
but won't put me down or
cut me loose

a buried past is flowering
around the church of suffering
don't let it in

we'll never ride their
prison line
Track Name: Burn a Church
dig her
don't you just dig her?
bite down
draw blood from your sister

satan
kisses me gently
get real
you'll fall for anything

dig her
my dead first girlfriend
bite down
soak these little problems

satan
wake me in the morning
get real
kill me whenever you want to
i want you
i want you to
Track Name: Virgin Veins
what a drag
beautiful and sad
a graveyard on the sun
fucking up
you just self destruct
abandoned and undone

the heart is a monument
to a childhood of abuse
a quiet suffering
that knows no one wants you
so lonely
so ugly
and confused

virgin veins
hold the rushing pain
of a past that cannot die
crippling everything
in cages of desire

the heart is a monument
to a childhood of abuse
a quiet suffering
that knows no one wants you
so lonely
so ugly
and confused
Track Name: Survivor's Guilt
expectations weigh on me
to satisfy these endless needs
and i don't care and i don't know why
maybe i'm no good inside
all this wasted time
to see your fucked up life
become mine

all these thoughts just won't be still
i bless my habit, pray to pills
i can't be part of your life
until i know how to die
all this wasted time
to see your fucked up life
become mine

fake flowers begin to wilt
in this house my heart had built
to keep me far away from us
i know i'm not brave enough
keep me far away from us
i'll never be brave enough
all this wasted time
to see your fucked up life
become mine
Track Name: Marie (No Sleep)
terrified sunlight
rising in your eyes
never wanted to try

your first boyfriend died
spirits still rip through your mind
you can leave this world behind
but when you do be kind to me
marie, no sleep

come on rock the void
lonely and so paranoid
put me in my place
put me in my place

your first boyfriend died
spirits still rip through your mind
you can leave this world behind
but when you do be kind to me
marie, no sleep
Track Name: Posthumous Release
dust breathed in stuck pacing the ground
holding on to what you found once the clock
can't remember everything
the clock

i've never known someone who wasn't lonely
no one has ever known me
no one

our old man says he's living in hell
well you checked yourself in
you can check yourself out
i was born knowing one thing
i was born

maybe it's just how you think
your grand misperception
through your mass coloring

you can't hide what you don't show
i feel you breaking from deep below
a saint now in the same dream
a saint